Yeah, and may it be the first of many sober months!
Someone asked me today about bringing back the Diary of an Alcoholic blog… did anyone used to actually read it?! I suppose if people found it a good read, then I might… any thoughts?
I think it helped last time. But to be honest, last time, I was an absolute mess. This time round, everything is better than it was then; I am no longer in a job that I hate for one thing. RBS was a large part of where I went with my life but at the same time I would never blame my alcohol issues solely on the place, as I have a history with drink before and after that place.
But man oh man did I hate it! Don’t get me wrong, I made some great friends. People like Kully, Joe, Fellows, Macca, Lynda, JMC, Robbo and many more are people that I hope I will be in contact with for the rest of my life. But at the same time there are people that made me very miserable. For instance, Nigel Harrison is one of the biggest pieces of shit that I have ever met in my life, and if I ever see Gail Hipkiss again I will probably spit in her ugly face. There are plenty of pieces of scum in that place and I am better off out of there. I do miss the good people though – and there are plenty of those too. Hell, the people were the main thing that kept me there for so long! I mean when you can go to lunch every day with a gang of lads like Hibbert, O’Toole, Joyner and Grafter, that is a pretty damn good group!
Which brings me on to Silent Filter, which I love… and yes, again through this I have met people that I have serious issues with and would gladly see them come to harm but at the same time I have met some brilliant people and I am 100% committed to what we do. In all honesty, I don’t think we’re doing enough! I want more, more, MORE!
Silent Filter is, by nature, a risk for me because I spend so much time in bars. But I think as I have a job to do, staying sober will be, for the main part, not the struggle it would be if I just spent time in pubs with my mates. So all is good. I am mostly happy. I could be happier, but couldn’t we all?
One month down, hopefully many more to go!
Much love.
